Careful Where You Stand

by Ashley on June 25, 2010

If you would like to read my novel Careful Where You Stand,
please email me at writetoreach@gmail.com
and I will send you a pdf.

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Vlog: My First Two Novels

by Ashley on April 29, 2010

This is a vlog I recorded more than a year ago.  It’s about my first two novels.  Spoiler: they are both named after NSYNC songs.  I was that serious.  Please ignore the bit in the beginning.  I intended on posting this back then, but never did.

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I listen to a lot of podcasts.  About a year ago, after hearing about it on Filmspotting, I started listening to the Creative Screenwriting Magazine podcast.  In each episode, the host interviews a screenwriter (usually one whose movie has just been released and screened for an audience before the interview).

I love to hear writers talk about their writing and while some writers seem to shy away from talking about their inspirations and processes and the business side of writing, these screenwriters do not.  Jeff Goldsmith, the host, asks them all the questions I want to know the answers to, but would be terrified to ask of writers myself just because they’re the kind of questions I’ve often heard writers complain about being asked.  Things like, “where did the idea for this script come from?”

He also asks them if they use outlines and how much time they spend writing every day.  After listening to only a few episodes, you’ll realize there is no standard process.  Some writers hate outlines and think them useless, some writers think they should use outlines but never have, and others wouldn’t know how to start if they didn’t have the whole story planned out already.  As for how much time they spend writing every day, one thing is pretty standard: for every three hours they sit down with the plan to write, they produce no more than one hour worth of writing. No one to immune to procrastination.

I’ve gained several pieces of insight from listening to this podcast, most of which I wish now I’d written down, because I can’t remember them.  Just today, I was listening to the episode where Jeff interviews Nick Hornby about his adaptation of An Education.  Jeff always asks people about their breaking in stories–how they got into the business.

Out of that came something I’ve thought before, but never with such clarity.  Nick’s first book was a memoir and then his second, High Fidelity, was fiction.  He says that when he was writing the memoir, he could put in every thing he’d ever learned in his life, all of his wisdom.  But, in writing the novel, he couldn’t, because the character didn’t know that stuff and would make  mistakes that Nick wouldn’t.  In the case of High Fidelity, he’d let the girl get away.  He says, “We’re stupid at the time things are happening.”

I experienced this with my first novel, especially, because I was writing about a 16 year old and I am a hell of a lot smarter now than I was at 16.  On top of which, this girl is not me.  In fact, I was smarter and more ambitious than her when I was 16.  She makes mistakes I wouldn’t.  She says things she doesn’t mean.  She believes things that are not true.  Even knowing all of that, it’s hard to keep in mind.  I want to make her a smart girl who no one takes advantage of, who knows that people are there for her, and who doesn’t think that she’ll never recover from this tragedy.  But, she doesn’t know all of this stuff.

Still, with Haley it was easier, because she is at such a different time in her life than I am and her life at 16 is so different than mine was, but it is harder in the most recent novel, because I’m writing about people who are in almost the same period of life that I am and they are smart people.  I do give them insights of mine, because I think they’d have them, but it’s hard not to give them everything I know.  But, as Nick Hornby says, if he’d given Rob in High Fidelity all of his knowledge, then the central conflict of the story never would have happened.  There would be no story.

It’s not that the characters are dumb.  It’s just that we learn things from what we experience and even the smartest people do stupid things in the moment.  With distance, you forget all the back story and defensiveness.  You want to explain why someone did something in the most logical way, but their motivations don’t adhere so strictly to logic.  The central conflict of the novel I’m working on would fall apart if the characters were 100% level headed and, more importantly, knew what the other was thinking, but they have this huge history that’s shading their vision and they think they know what the other is thinking, but they’re wrong.  It’s hard to stop myself from saving them pain, but that’s where the story lives.

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The Fight That Plagues

by Ashley on March 19, 2010

I wrote a few weeks ago about a character who is haunting me. I mentioned that he was fighting in my head with another character.  My experience writing fiction is that these big dramatic scenes are the easiest to write.  They’re exciting and I have a very strong idea of what needs to happen.  They play like scenes in my head and then I work out the details in the writing.

But, this fight is stomping all over that experience.  It’s not haunting me.  It’s plaguing me.  It’s so loud in my head and it’s been there for at least nine months, driving me crazy.

Spinning stories in my head is one of my favorite things in the world to do.  It’s the fun that makes the struggle of writing fiction worth it.  It’s magic to me.  And, okay, this fight has entertained me many long nights working in the library, but more than anything else I’ve written, it irritates me.  After almost a year, I still can’t figure it out.  I’m still not happy with it.

I’m not the kind of writer who obsesses over every word.  I have no idea how those kinds of writers ever finish anything, but it’s not just about productivity.  I see detail.  I appreciate it.  But, it doesn’t interest me like big questions and sweeping stories.  So, my obsession with this fight is out of character.

I guess the thing is that it’s the climax of the story and the major turning point.  What comes out in this fight will set the tone for the entire novel up to that point.  Or, maybe it’s just that it’s there in my head screaming at me all the time.

I have pages and pages of attempts.  I like different pieces of each one, but I can’t seem to fit them into anything that feels right.  No matter what, I’ll have to rewrite it several more times when I finally get to that point in the novel and when I revise, but I can’t shake my current fixation.

The other night, I felt for the first time in a while that I was really going to crack it.  I was up too late writing, but I went to bed thinking about writing this post.  Thinking of how it would have a nice little resolution about finally making progress, finally finding a cure for what plagues.  Reading it the next night, I was disappointed to find that though there is progress, I’m still without a cure.

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Vampire Weekend

by Ashley on March 18, 2010

Maybe you guessed it already, but I am a wee bit obsessive.  Mostly in the best of ways.  I am perhaps most obsessive about music.  If only I was obsessive about finding new music–then maybe I could impress some people.  Instead, I find one artist or group and listen obsessively, for days, weeks, months, years.  I don’t love and then let go.  I hold on forever.

Vampire Weekend and I just began a relationship I’m sure will last through the ages.  They’re with me now, pushing me along.  I wrote this on the Some Other Air to Breathe page, but there’s something about young people doing what they do really well that makes me want to do the same.

For me, music is about the whole thing all together.  It’s an easy way to feel when you don’t create it yourself.  But, when I do pull something out, it’s obviously lyrics.  Here are some of the lyrics inspiring me now:

Here comes a feeling you thought you’d forgotten
Chairs to sit and sidewalks to walk on
Oh you had it but oh no you lost it
Lookin’ back you shouldn’t have fought it
Horchata

Unsentimental
Driving around
Sure of myself
Sure of it now
You were standing this close to me
Like the future was supposed to be
In the aisles of the grocery
And the blocks up-town
I remember
Remember well
But if I’d forgotten
Could you tell?
In the shadow of your first attack
I was questioning and looking back
You said, “Baby, we don’t speak of that.”
Taxi Cab

You felt the coming wave
Told me we’d all be brave
You said you wouldn’t flinch

But in the years that passed
Since I saw you last
You haven’t moved an inch
Giving Up The Gun

But it’s not useful now
Since we both made up our minds
You’re going to watch out for yourself
So will I
I Think UR a Contra

And on top of all of that, it’s nice to have music to write to.

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I have been writing novels for 10 years now and I don’t have nearly enough to show for it.  Sure I’ve been busy collecting degrees and pursuing other dreams, but I want to write!  It’s time to get serious.  Time to stop worrying about whether I’m good enough.  Time to stop letting my lack of, well, time keep me from writing.  Time to stop letting the impracticalities of publishing keep me from moving forward.  Time stop writing about writing and just get to the fiction already!

So here I begin with renewed motivation and a place to hold myself accountable.  I will be sharing my thoughts on writing, my progress, my struggles, and my inspirations.  Most of these posts will go on my main blog, but I will use this section of Writing to Reach You to share small updates and different things that are inspiring me.

In the sidebar to the left, you’ll find all of my posts on writing.  In the sidebar to the write, you’ll find links to my current projects.  Each project has its own page with a basic summary, history, and (mostly musical) influences.

Time to get to the hard work of writing fiction!

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